Today was Day 4 of my trip from San Diego to Columbus to start my new life without Mary Ann. Part of me is excited and glad to be back home with all my favorite peeps; and part of me is so sad that what I thought would be the relationship I would share until death is over. Although I realize that love is not enough to sustain a relationship, I do feel that I failed Mary Ann in some way. Unfortunately, we have 3 big issues on which we cannot agree - namely compromise, trust, and money. I wish the willingness to try to work things out had been there; but unfortunately, it was not. I know in my head that my feelings of failure are unrealistic; I just wish I could convince my heart. There are times when the sadness of losing Mary Ann is so great I don't think I can bear the pain. But I know everything happens for a reason and I must go on. I have decided that keeping a blog may help me in the healing process. Here I can pour out my feelings, successes, and failures in my new life.
I hope that you will walk with me on my journey. Maybe my insights and revelations will be an inspiration to you as you live your life. I am constantly reminded that no man is an island. We need each other and we need to share our sorrows, our failures, and our successes. May we each continue to strive to be the best that we can be.
No comments:
Post a Comment